hi pals! it's me again, after all exams that i've been through, after that long journey just to get that Faculty Medicine, it comes to a new beginning.

"maksudnya new beginning, well?"

ya itu. kadang, rencana yang udah lo buat dan lo yakin bakal dijalanin berakhir ga sesuai harapan. malah bahkan, melampaui harapan lo sendiri yang lo ga pernah terpikir. contoh: GUE.

yeah i was once dreamed, i wanna enroll a university abroad. dan itu cuma sekilas mimpi, ga pernah gue pikirin lagi selanjutnya. gue berencana masuk Pendidikan Dokter di universitas yang gue pengenin di Indonesia. but, it's not fucking easy, dear~~~ i've tried so many times and i just got bumped everytime. i felt like "God, i'm a dumb, really".

di ujung-ujung pengharapan, akhirnya sekitar bulan Agustus awal, mama nelfon, ngasih tau ada program studi ke Jerman.

JERMAN, MA?! ................................. 

sejauh-jauhnya mimpi gue cuma ke Australia (re: nyusul pacar). i was like "wtf, itu jauh banget!"

yah tapi why not? kalo ada kesempatan kan. akhirnya, gue ambil and HERE I AM. di Jakarta Selatan, terdampar di Kemang (re: daerah anak gaul dan bule) buat kursus bahasa Jerman sampe Desember nanti.

gue gasuka di Kemang :( tempat makan elite semua dan mahal, mau warteg tapi jauh banget. terus suka macet gitu hhh. hidup ~_~

and you guys should always pray for me, ya! viel Gluck fur meine Aufnahme test hier und Studienkolleg test dort:) i will go to Germany on January, 2014 with my friends who also take course at the Exzellenz Institut. Good Luck for us!!! g&k.

We, met for the first time years ago and then fell in love at first sight
Baby, wherever i go, you stand by my side like a shadow
Now and then, there are so many many things to prove our love
Even when I’m hurt, even when I fall, she’s the only one remaining by my side

*Baby baby baby baby baby, let’s never break up
Oh my lady lady lady lady lady, I really love you
Shawty shawty shawty shawty shawty, the one who i choose is only you

Even to my tears, even to my little smiles.. Do you know?
That it all came from you

Don’t say such things like you’ve gotten old already because I make you worry so much
No matter how I look at it, for me, there is no one in this world that is as beautiful as you are (don’t even say such things)
I don’t know why you keep staying with me. And also I’m sorry because I am not enough for you
But still try to believe. I will I will do well

*Baby baby baby baby baby, let’s never break up
Oh my lady lady lady lady lady, I really love you
Shawty shawty shawty shawty shawty, the one who i choose is only you
Even to my tears, even to my little smiles.. Do you know?
That it all came from you

Even if it seems the words ‘There is no one but you’ looks so obvious , how do I show you my heart?
Even though we fight, even when we say we hate (each other) to death, doesn’t your heart know already?
Those days of only beautiful things, seeing together only the good things about us, eating together, having fun together, crying together and laughing together
Thank you for believing in me that i won’t fall and for standing by my side. Really thank you

*Baby baby baby baby baby, let’s never break up
Oh my lady lady lady lady lady, I really love you
Shawty shawty shawty shawty shawty, the one who i choose is only you

I will always thank you and love you

-  Super Junior

June, 7th 2012. 9.31. i am writing this post. well, tiba tiba pengen aja curhat di blog. firstly, thanks Allah, the only God yang Maha Segalanya udah ngasih saya kesempatan buat ikut dalam SNMPTN Undangan 2012. gue bersyukur banget jadi salah satu orang yg beruntung bisa ikutan jalur undangan. tapi gue juga harus tetep bersyukur dan lapang dada, kalo ternyata gue ngga cukup beruntung buat lolos SNMPTN Undangan tersebut.

guys, this is still the biggest shocktherapy i've ever had :( you can't imagine how speechless i was when i saw the result. mau nangis aja rasanya udah gabisa, saking kecewanya gue. gue cuma diem, meratiin itu tulisan satu-satu. siapa tau aja ada yang salah. but, no. this was not my way to enroll the university.

gue sedih? iya. kecewa? banget. tapi yaudahlah ga perlu dipikirin. artinya gue harus fokus ke jalur yang lain, dan disini lah gue. di Depok bareng2 fadhila, sila, momod, adhan, farhan, denny, alief, bimbel intensif buat persiapan snmptn jalur ujian tulis.

maaf ya entri kali ini agak2 mellow ~_~ gue masih mikir sampe sekarang, apa cuma dengan cara masuk FK baru orangtua gue bisa bangga? :( kenapa sih semua FK dimana mana jadi favorit? gue ngerasa kemampuan gue ga nyampe kesana, ga bakal bisa lolos FK (kecuali mukjizat). intinya gue takut banget, udah ngabisin uang orangtua buat bimbel, buat ongkos pkp-depok, living cost disini, daftar ujian sana sini, then i get nothing. sumpah, i'm on the highest level of scared. gue takut ngecewain orang tua, takut.

kenapa sih gue diharuskan masuk FK? gue merasa ngga sepinter itu................apa gue bisa? sekarang, gue cuma bisa usaha, usaha semaksimal mungkin, belajar supaya kemungkinan buat lulus semakin besar. ya Allah, malu banget rasanya cuma inget Allah di saat gue lagi sedih, lagi susah, lagi lemah, astaghfirullahaladzim. maafin hamba, ya Allah. bantu hamba buat ngelewatin semua ini, supaya ngga ngecewain orang orang tersayang. ya Allah, hamba mohon ridho-Mu :(

usaha, doa, tawakal. semangat, Wella! masih ada waktu buat usaha dan berdoa lebih giat! don't give up, you can't just skip this chance away! :")

kay, guys. it was my first experience on watching idol's concert. as you see the title, it was Super Junior's concert at Jakarta, Indonesia. well, you couldn't imagine how excited i was when this event was confirmed by Showmaxx Ent! ><

*left to right* me, anggun, nana, jehi, fani.

yg nemenin gue ngantri dr jam 1 siang sampe setengah 6 (120428)

I bought two tickets, on 28 i got the Superbox C (standing) and on 29 was the Junior VIP M tix (seating). hahahahaha i almost spent my whole money for these currrazy things ~_~

i was so so so amazed and entertained with SJ's performance >< they really brought the joy for ELF there. apalagi yg waktu opening pake lagu Superman, baru kepala kepala doang muncul dari jauh item2 gue udah lompat2 teriak ~_~ *abaikan* walopun cape berdiri terus yah 3 jam lebih tp worth it loh, bisa liat dr deket banget!

bahkan gue masih sempet cubit2 pipi apa mimpi apa bukan, saking ga percayanya. but, for me the most flawless men are Donghae and Hyukjae!!! can't stop spazzing about them, can't stay calm even if they appeared only on the VCR lol :D

their voice r great! esp Kyuhyun and Yesung. well, their recorded voices on the CDs are exactly the same if you listen to it LIVE. no doubt, thumbs up! :D

Ryeowookie is like my younger sister, hahahaha he ran and jumped here and there, smiled widely and waved smoothly. he was so cute even when he performed a bit sexy dance with Moves Like Jagger song >< Teukie is the most kind leader in the world, he bowed much to us, waved much, made eye contact. Siwon was swag *_* Sungmin was so cute like a rabbit, except when he performed One In A Million, too much sexiness ==" and Shindong was so cool when he danced to Cinta Jangan Kau Pergi by Vidi Aldiano :D

i never regret those moments, esp when Donghae looked at me, smiled and waved u,u most unforgettable moment. the fanchants were so loud! <3 and the sapphire blue ocean...

[the stage]

[sapphire blue ocean from junvip M]

[stage after concert from superbox C]

see you next time, oppars. 

-Indonesia gadis ^^

the very first thing to say is A HUGE SORRY for not coming to your birthday party. sebenernya gue tau, itu bukan cuma 'yasinan' biasa. gue tau itu juga sekaligus acara ulang tahunnya elu yg ke-17. tapi, gue malu. sekali lagi ya, gue malu dateng kesana ga bawa apa2 buat elu == petantang petenteng dateng with no birthday present? well....... then i chose not to come at all.

gue kira itu bukan masalah besar, tapi habis baca postingannya di blog gue merasa agak 'tersentil' hahahaha. gue inget banget, pas gue ulang tahun ke 16, malem sebelumnya dia nanya gue suka barang mana pas di naughty? gue bilang aja tas yg biru corak bunga itu. eh besoknya dia ngadoin gue itu. unexpectedly.

hey one of my close friend, temen galau masalah kuliah, temen nonton film, rekan debat, cewe yang hidupnya paling blak blakan (lol), so sorry for not coming. give you a birthday present soon, honey ;)

being the 3rd grader of senior high school is suck when you're on the edge of graduation.

BINGO! itu bener banget. gue, sebagai siswi yg bentar lagi mau UN, dan bentar lagi juga mau KULIAH, sekali lagi merasakan apa itu yg namanya 'galau'. galau gara gara masalah perkuliahan ini lebih menyiksa, soalnya kalo salah langkah, bisa berakibat ke masa depan dan buang buang uang, man. gila. apalagi pas gue liat web resmi SNMPTN '12 nyesek banget T_T


gue galau masalah jurusan. galau mau milih uni mana. galau mau ngambil undangan kemana. galau galau galau.


gue bahkan pernah mikir, kenapa kkm sekolah gue ga 90 aja sekalian. biar gue bisa bersaing sama anak-anak jawa. gue sedikit iri, anak-anak jawa kayaknya agak lebih gampang dapet PTN yg bagus dan well-known. gue? buat ikut snmptn undangan ini cuma bermodalkan nilai rata2 rapot 86,93......................................damn itu bakal dengan mudah dicampakkan oleh anak-anak jawa yg nilainya segede gaban T_T


jadi, orang tua nyuruh gue ngambil FK. sebenernya gue gamau ngambil FK. alasannya?

1. FK peminatnya banyak, saingannya banyak
2. FK musti liat darah dan mayat. (gue liat temen berdarah jarinya kena pisau aja udah lemes lutut -_-)
3. FK passing gradenya pasti selalu tinggi -_- (dan gue bukan jenis orang yg pinter2 banget)

tapi yang gue tau, jadi dokter itu bakal sejahtera hahahahaha =_= dan daripada gue nentang orang tua dan ga berkah kuliahnya, mending gue turutin aja dah. semoga aja gue ga pingsan melulu pas praktek *berasa udah pasti dapet fk* -_-

dan uni pilihan gue ada beberapa nih: UI, Unair, Unsri, Undip. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah, demi apapun gue pengen banget dapet FKUI *nangis bombay* dan yg bikin gue galau adalah:

• karena gue wilayah Sumatra, otomatis peluang ke Unsri lebih gede kan. dan orang tua gue jg ngebet banget nyuruh gue di Unsri. well, insyaallah dapet lah undangan Unsri.....................KALO AJA KUOTANYA BUKAN 20 DOANG. gilaaaaaaa, anak orang yg mau jadi dokter bejibun gitu yg dicomot cuma 20???!!! sakit jiwa. dan gue pun galau...
• UI dan Unair. walaupun secara peluang, kesempatannya lebih besar dan kursinya lebih banyak, tapi kembali ke awal bahwa anak-anak jawa itu nilainya pada segede gaban o_O rada impossible lah kayaknya ~_~
• Undip. menurut web snmptn, yg mau masuk FK Undip itu banyak pake banget! jadi mikir berkali-kali kalo ngajuin undangan ke FK Undip -_-
• gue sebenernya pengen dapet Unsri di undangan ini lah. jadi ntar ujian tertulis sama mandiri, gue ngejer2 UI sampe dapet ~_~ tapi dengan kuota 20 orang, HOW COME? dan gue pun galau.......

Ya Allah, show me the right way, please.......................hhhh. dan gue pun galau......

@ Es Teller 77 with Gerro ;)

Bajaj Time with Anggun

@ A&W with Anggun (again)

Waiting for the movie to start with Gerro & Sisca

On Photobooth with the three of them :D

On the way to the airport :D

Wet! Wet! @ OPI Waterfun!

Omg heartbeatttt! \m/ Banana Boat <3

Preparing ourselves to kiss the water!

LOL Banana Boat was terribly exciting :p